Feels Good

Listening to some old and new music. Finally going to try and listen to all the songs I have.

Learning...

To accept and let go, hard things to do when easily said. Maybe watching star wars III made my eyes open a tad bit. Interesting things you learn from movies.

Its quite cold in my house, good thing I have two blankets to wrap myself in.

I fear my dog will be depressed, again, once I leave back for Seattle.

Sadly enough, it doesn't feel like Christmas.

I suppose I'm looking forward to the new year.

Just because its the new year, does it mean there has to be change?

I want a trapper's hat... so if anyone is going to get me a gift for Christmas, a trapper's hat would be awesome O_o... my head's cold.

Restless............................................ blargh!

Maybe I'll take pictures of my face starting January 1st, and everyday onward, to see how much I will change, always wanted to take on such a project.

It'd be nice to cuddle with someone you like/love in this cold season.

rawr, out-

Another Attack of Insomnia

I feel queasy and my body weak. So far this break has been nothing but negative. Only positive thing I see has been playing MW2 non-stop, but then again that's not a positive is it? I don't know what's up. Breaks always make me depressed. There's never anything to do. No one to hang out with.

My mom has repeatedly reminded me of how old I am, and the fact that I still act as if I was my 14 year old self. What does it mean to be an adult? Do I have to be serious all the time? Do I need to be working all the time? I don't understand what's so wrong with how I act. Maybe because I'm so lazy.................................................................

I just can't have what I want, and I'm too damn attached to let go. Seriously, fml.

Tell me world, is it okay to scream? Is it okay to yell out and let go of this frustration I have for myself? Would any one hear me? If they did, would they care?

The fact that my music sucks doesn't help my mood either... I guess I'm just having another music A.D.D. day.

Solution: I need to find myself some sweet lil' thing to help me cope with my sadness.

Solution: Get over myself.

Solution: Take my own advice.

Solution: Jump off a bridge? Naaah

Solution: Confront it head on while screaming, because screaming makes your stronger :) [drabonball z taught me that]

Solution: Cut the hair and lose some weight.

Solution: Be an asshole... apparently it works.

Solution: Actually wake up before the afternoon and go do something...

Bored and Sad, Never a Good Combination

:(

That's the face I make constantly ever since break started.

Could it be the lack of social interaction (besides hanging out with Theresa, that was fun)?

The amazing amount of boredom I feel during break with nothing to worry about?

Or maybe because I'm sad about a friend that has gone away for the break?

Either way, I'm SAD......

Yesterday, bought a box of frosted sugar cookies, and so far those have been my sustainance for the past day and a half, not healthy, I'm sure.

Got an amazing surprise for my grades this past quarter.

A- in Philosophy

B- in Physics

B- in Ecology

Extremely relieved after seeing those letters, I was freaking out about physics and ecology. I suppose I pulled through in the finals. Thank the Lord, Almighty Jesus :D

Other than that, life has returned to mundane boring, something that is always present during break. *sigh*

I really need a push out the door.